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Ukraine-Kursk , Debby-Ernesto, Harris-Walz and UAP Discussions…

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Ukraine-Kursk

Okay , now there is probably a tendency in the media and elsewhere to overthink this particularly since no one saw it coming. In tennis we call it “Hit It Where They Ain’t”. It’s precisely what it sounds like.

For Ukraine it probably began with the observation that new Russian units are getting younger and younger on average , and that many of them are literally starving in the field. Of course this is partly due to Russian MOD’s propensity for destroying most of the local resources they come into contact with. Pretty clearly an intellectually impaired strategy at best and full on reflective of brain damage at worst. These observations, for an experienced and capable command , should begin a chain of calculations. If there is reasonable control of ground your adversary needs for supply chains and attacks are being launched from largely unsecured terrain (hello Kursk) within enemy borders…holy toledo what are you waiting for ? (and to be fair Ukraine has had to wait for far too many things). You can change the balance of outcomes more efficiently with operations within that territory.

So now these Russian military impairments are exposed for all the world to see. We are watching the well run dry in real time. The propaganda machine is grinding gears loudly and the truth is leaking out of the disinformation engine the kleptocracy normally uses to keep citizens in the dark. There is now more than one endgame for Ukraine. Will Russia have that moment of sanity and begin withdrawals ? Sanity, unfortunately for Russian governance, is also in short supply. That has been the case for quite some time now.

Debby-Ernesto

For those that follow the Killeans Row Mastodon feed I tracked and did some native input modeling for the Tropical Storm / briefly Hurricane Debby approach and transit of Florida thru August 6th , something we’ve been doing for local storms for many years from the days when Twitter was first a thing. Of course NOAA / NHC as well as all of NWS were all on there along with a legion of weather bugs. It was fun until well…if you know you know.

In case you’ve lost track after Debby left Florida the mayhem continued with flooding rains from Georgia all the way up thru Pennsylvania and into Southeastern Canada (and record rainfall in Montreal !). Here are some totals via Yale Climate Connections :

Florida: 18.86 inches, Parrish
South Carolina: 18.25 inches, 5.3 miles southeast of Summerville
Georgia: 14.82 inches, 1.4 miles east-southeast of Oliver
Maryland: 6.95 inches, 1 mile south of Damascus
New Jersey: 8.67 inches, 1.7 miles southeast of Pennington
North Carolina: 15.25 inches, Kings Grant
Delaware: 6.57 inches, 5.3 miles north of Newark
Virginia: 7.6 inches, 1.3 miles east-northeast of Afton
West Virginia: 5.98 inches, 12.8 miles south-southwest of Harpers Ferry
Pennsylvania: 5.39 inches, 5 miles north-northwest of Rainsburg

Yale Climate Connections has Jeff Masters and Bob Henson Eye On The Storm Coverage of these events. They are two of the best in the business and if your not following them you should be.

Ernesto is now a tropical storm and compared to the slow crawl of Debby is absolutely hauling a** at about 28 mph due West-Northwest towards the Virgin Islands and Puerto Rico. The storm has plenty of breathing room so Hurricane status is likely a given. Primary threat is still rainfall but a turn north later keeps the cone away from the East Coast. Bermuda unfortunately is still in the intensification track.

Harris-Walz

From here the Democrats handling of events post debate regarding Joe Biden were a quintessential public relations disaster. It naturally seemed like things would go from bad to worse. We were caught totally off guard when he made the announcement that he was dropping out and then once again when Harris-Walz came roaring out of the gate. The whole thing in its entirety has been a shocking lesson that predicting political outcomes can be a lot harder than predicting weather. Chastened we are. But also relieved at the very positive direction heading into November.

Notes On UAP Discussions

Most of this activity thus far has been with posts to the Mastodon feed. Rather than start at the beginning I’ll summarize what this is about: Events in 2017 triggered a rash of media coverage regarding the Nimitz and other battle group encounters with UAP that were recorded by fighter pilots, battle group radar and signals intelligence. To be clear it was improved systems performance and integration (including upgraded radar in fighters) that amounted to some of the first high fidelity multi messenger tracking and video of these objects released to the public. It’s not that UAP haven’t been on the radar for quite some time but rather that deployed technology has now crossed a threshold that makes certain kinds of verification less subject to noise.

So these things are real vehicles. That particular cat is out of the bag. It’s extremely unlikely that they are ours or belong to any known adversary. There is a lot more in the way of technical research interest now that the first stages of what some are calling initial disclosure are in the rear view mirror. It’s still hard for many to accept but no longer carries that stigmatized potential padded room crazy of a circus carnival coming through town. Researchers in astrophysics, aerospace engineering, aviation, materials science and many other areas understand now that related work is of serious import. The time has come for real work outside the confines of the military apparatus.

Perhaps more importantly there is already a surge of funding in the private and public domain for work that will not be subject to classification, clearance requirements, non disclosure agreements and the like. That means that the highly skilled people necessary to do this work are not going to be getting sucked into an abyss of silos never to be seen again. They can work and publish and share findings in the sheer light of day the way most researchers do. To get a taste of what all that means visit The Sol Foundation or watch their video posts on YouTube.

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…Oh My Ghad Itza March Already…

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So uhh here’s the thing. Occasionally a project comes in (okay never) where in exchange for giving up your independent rebel cred and autonomy you get to work on exactly ONE thing while a bunch of other people slave over stuff that you would otherwise also have to do yourself in the large majority of familiar scenarios. That sounds absolutely horrible doesn’t it (wincing now) ? Now to make things worse there are these other rules regarding social media (like it not being a thing for the duration) that are absolutely draconian (hard time breathing now) and then of course there is the possibility of being incredibly busy for the rest of one’s life afterwards (is carried out on stretcher)…

Coincidentally I’d just finished a surmise of possible social media strategies for marketing new music. As much as I love Mastodon there are certain difficulties with respect to streaming and the statistics of user base that come into play. To put it bluntly Mastodon is still short of the magnitudes and distributions required to have considerable impact in terms of new releases. There is a lot to like about Mastodon- it may actually be the best up and coming network not held in sway of forces otherwise on the dark side.

But the biggest players have that certain statistical reality in play in terms of user base versus amplification. The inherent conflict can be circumscribed thus: streaming platforms will only support your music via income when your hitting quite high streaming frequencies. Personally I’d rather release vinyl and CDs on my own label and tell it all with a rebel yell for streaming platforms to go fark themselves. Theoretically you want to establish that base first so you have the bargaining power to negotiate a better deal with the big platforms later on (someone mentioned that sounded like pulling a Taylor Swift but she was already way huge when she went there). I honestly don’t know if you can formulate an optimized strategy when the current music industry resembles nothing of the past. It’s not for want of trying

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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2024 !

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Well….That was fast. The weather here finally decided to resemble something reasonably seasonal about two weeks into December before popping back into 70ish range. The holiday season has been a blast regardless , probably more so than usual just because up against a backdrop of a world moving from one petulant tantrum to another the push-back is mostly about enjoying the season and just saying no to all the negativity, anhedoniacs and other assorted varieties of grumpenthropes…seems to be working.

A few months back I’d started to reconsider the long held desire to have the live rig and the recording rig be the same rig. Overcoming the technical hurdles for that becoming a viable reality for gigging musicians creates a whole range of opportunities for making music without needing a semi to haul your gear around. The problem is having a command central that is flexible enough to adapt and cover all that ground via a workflow that most musicians will be familiar with. There are good solutions that cover bits and pieces – like Mainstage and GigPerformer , but they require juggling and trading one asset and workflow for another, not to mention having to reprogram things like complicated synth multis every time you move between them – and that takes a lot of time. I’d been watching the revs and updates for Presonus Studio One with interest for a good long while. They’ve been upping their game and advancing the feature set at rapid pace year after year. This last 6.5 update added Dolby Atmos integration and updated many of the native plugins for multichannel work in the Atmos workflow. It’s an absolute beast of a DAW, so if any of this sounds familiar to you and you’ve already been through all those other gyrations it may be time to check out Studio One. The view from here is that she’s the one. We’ll be talking about features and progress as we go.

The other thing of course is the Youtube channel for DailyTracks . That is one can that keeps getting kicked down the road in lieu of one thing or another. I’m not one for resolutions but this is after all a brand new year and so of course the optimism that goes with is notably present and in accordance with mentions that came before. Give us a cadence…

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The Rooster Said It Was Time To Fix All The Things

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Well just fixed a bunch of stuff at least in part to avoid literally starting over with all the latest whiz bang web design stuff here that devs get excited about. Quite frankly most of us mere mortals are going to be thrilled when our next site moves past the parking lot stage. It shouldn’t take a large obnoxious bird yelling every morning to be reminded that these things require more than checking in every few months. Projects are busting out so it’s definitely time for this place to at least bear some semblance of life and care. Right now that means conforming images , structural updates, edits for clarity and readability. Just some basic tidying well short of redesign that kicks things up to nominal.

A few years back Paul Krugman wrote a great little piece about how social platforms like Twitter were subverting the motivation for long form blogging , admitting that he had also felt that pull wherein a tweet might sate the desire for saying more about a subject when the elaboration would usually be of service- if not an outright requirement. Now at least that pendulum appears to be moving away from that nadir at least for some subject matter…and all it took was a round-the-clock fascist clown car demolition derby that has yet to run out of gas.

Musically speaking things are going rather well and the video beginnings of Daily Tracks are in the works. In contrast to the above situation with blogging the tendency now, and particularly with the power of tools like Davinci Resolve , is that everything little farking thing wants to be a major production. It’s all a bit intimiditing until you realize that you can do the little bits on the way to the big production and that is how almost anyone who has gotten anywhere with any of this usually starts off. What you don’t want is to wind up doing what everyone else is doing…and that takes some doing !

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Intro To Psi And Computation

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Intro To Psi And Computation

This post was previously hosted on the legacy site and later Blogspot in November 2016. There are some edits for clarity. Note that the psi of the title is still only speculatively related to the macro psi that humans have been recording in their experience for millenia. If we do in fact stabilize systems for quantum computation utilizing multiple methods and succeed in showing that quantum advantage can be achieved via more than one path we’ll be closer to having the tools we need to identify macro signatures “in the wild” . It will still be a nontrivial challenge. The idea that nature computes in the large and small is not accepted by everyone. Notions of computation in context here have to include biology and to be clear we are not invoking any kind of mechanistic or strictly materialist view on nature at all.

Introduction

The burden of proof for any unknown or anomalous physical phenomenology is usually met via record of observation. Whether or not there exists a strong theoretical foundation in place for guiding experimental probing is largely dependent upon the temporal development of technologies available for testing increasingly sophisticated ideas that build on what came before. We are at a rather unique crossroads for testing psi phenomena in that technology has made posing questions regarding esp , precognition and the like undifferentiable from problems in areas involving computation, engineering , physics and in my own particular neck of these woods prediction , analysis and signal processing. That is to say that these “problems” resemble many other things that constitute fundamental research in areas like quantum computation as well.

I am not a physicist. My own work involves analytic methods for signal detection in data when signals are poorly characterized and/or swamped by noise . In many cases this has required knowing the physics of the processes involved – the physics of the problem may be very well characterized but the means of data collection may be less than optimal or complicated by the presence of lots of noise in the form of things like…dust.

As a starting point I’d like to point out that once you accept the evidence for psi the consideration of models to test becomes paramount. The standard model of physics that represents our most up to date knowledge from the infinitesimal measure of the Planck length on up to cosmological scales is a fairly accommodating structure. The important thing is that we start somewhere that gives us the opportunity to avoid silly things like violating physical laws of energy conservation ,information and causality at the outset.

It’s easier to do that now than it was prior to contemporary theoretical work that encompasses multiple paths for putting quantum physics and relativity on the same page. Early on there were brilliant minds accelerating the development of the science with brilliant mathematics but at the time theories would produce lots of things that seemed nonsensical. Those particular solutions to the equations were ignored for a time as ‘nonphysical’ solutions or bothersome artifacts. In due course evidence for the reality of things like antimatter2, black holes3 and associated gravitational waves4 would drive theorists into some very strange waters. But even they wouldn’t have seen strings and M-Theory coming. Proper branes were conspicuous in their absence.

So where does all this leave us ? Does the standard model5 Universe have what it takes to produce macro psi ? Obviously yes if you accept the evidence for macro psi . But that needs to be narrowed. Can purely classical physics give us everything we need or do we require relativistic frames and quantized fields to explain psi ? This is where things get really interesting. In one framework we have observations that describe causal anomalies . In another we have…engineering challenges !

In this sense throwing down the gauntlet requires a map. Our statement here merely serves notice of intent. Don’t feel frustrated if you find it interesting but want more background. There will be plenty of citation and annotation , links and media as we go. If your feeling the impulse to jump in with objections already feel free to do so but remember – this is the cover and not the book. The book is still being written.

With the discontinuation of military based research in areas of psi that were useful to intelligence gathering high level and ongoing technical discussions involving these phenomena are few and far between. Hopefully in the future we’ll have other researchers putting in a word or two regarding their own work and where they think things might be going.

References

1. This is a short list of peer-reviewed journal articles and books about psi phenomena. It includes articles of historical interest, general overviews, critical reviews, and descriptions of psi applications. These articles appeared in specialty journals as well as top-tier outlets, including Nature, Science, The Lancet, Proceedings of the IEEE, Psychological Bulletin, Foundations of Physics, Frontiers in Human Neuroscience,  and Behavioral and Brain Sciences. Thanks Dean Radin and associates

2. CERN note on Paul Dirac and antimatter , a timeline

3. A Brief History Of Black Holes original article by Jeremy Scnittman via astronomy.com

4. MIT News press release February 11 2016 on 1st Direct Detection of Gravitational Waves

5. The Institute Of Physics short page on the Standard Model

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The Challenge Of A Social Media Interregnum For Musicians

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Sampling on eve of 04/02/23

It’s remarkable how quickly the situation described below is changing:

There are several factors contributing to this , the most persistent being the continual degradation of user experience and safety at Twitter. But also the spreading word that #Mastodon supplies ample tools for crafting individual and purpose built feeds- no coding required. With the now rapidly expanding user base of music fans will come that desired influx of musos, bands and supporting orgs. Things that originally looked to be a couple of years out (see below) may be in evidence in about four to six months or so . That folks…is huge.

We had no problem leaving Twitter for Mastodon. The problem now with Mastodon for musicians is that there is literally no one there. As much as I like Mastodon – and I really do , it’s not a ready made communication channel for musicians or those looking to be plugged into the studio or touring scene. If your a journo or in the sciences the situation is rapidly improving , but for working musicians it’s an empty room. From the general vantage point of Mastodon admins engagement on the platform is excellent, but the more highly specified your subgroup is the more quickly that engagement falls off to zero. The potential for an engaging vibrant community of musicians and fans to grow and thrive on the platform is excellent given proper time – that being two or three years.

For anyone truly concerned about the life of their democracy leaving Twitter is/was easy. Ownership went full fascist and there is nothing to be done. The problem is that if you wanted a pro democracy snow white to go to Mastodon is it. Every other platform has at least one fascist/racist billionaire leader in the wings looking for a way to get more fascists/racists elected to Congress while paying no taxes. Facebook/Meta/Instagram are just below Twitter on that list. YouTube (a Google property) is a bit laggard in the fascism department. No one knows how long that will hold up but right now your going to do better utilizing YouTube resources to grow and extend your messaging. That’s probably true whether it be production , songwriting, touring or general messaging.

I say this with a grimace , but Instagram may be the necessary second half of that duo. Have never been on there but the music community is there in the large. So when you are actually working on projects the pool is just much larger. What we’re after is viable mediums with inbuilt working populations of both musicians and fans.

For a brief flicker there was hope that the light bulb would go on in the large regarding the importance of decentralized platforms and federated infrastructures that are inherently immune to things like a Twitter-Musk bomb. YouTube and Instagram are definitely not that. They are highly centralized and thus vulnerable. It’s a puzzle most of us have to solve literally right now , not two years from now.

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Happy New Year 2023 !

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The year is 2023. The future is here. Have yet to witness any literal flying cars yet but must say down South at least this can only be a good thing. These folks are definitely not ready for that particular wrinkle on the Z axis. In other news we’ve probably got some explaining to do as there hasn’t been much in the way of news and updates of late…

Here’s the deal: Late 2022 We did the math (and then re-did it multiple times) for music release timing and found the situation wanting. A big part of that is the way platforms like Spotify and YouTube try to maximize their advertising revenue really isn’t very compatible with new artists attempting to maximize revenue from a new release. You’d think it would be thrilling to put the thing out there and hit 50,000 to 100,000 streams in several months but the truth is that particular result won’t pay any bills much less cover your overhead.

We need a more comprehensive approach approximating what major labels used to do for major artists- but only completely in the absence of what those labels would do when signing artists that A&R folks judged to be up and coming because hello, that doesn’t even exist anymore ! Is there some optimal approach out there in light of the current situation ?

Maybe , But whatever that may turn out to be it’s going to be entirely up to you (the artist) to foot those costs going forward. If your timing goes south and a COVID surge or some other catastrophe knocks out your support dates (or a band member that can’t be replaced) that’s just tough luck. The only insurance policy you have is whatever else you have going on to pay the bills. Still, in spite of those challenges there are always reasons for hope.First of all, we as musicians are all propelled by love of music and performance – a thing by itself mostly petulent and unreasonable but stubborn in persistence. Secondly , there are signs that some kind of rebalance is going on down there beneath the surface. The music industry , after all and as a whole must want to survive at least as much as everyone else. If sustainability doesn’t include artists then what survives…isn’t music. If your ready to imagine a world without live music your obviously not a working musician.

It’s a safe bet that most folks that enjoy live music are not professional musicians. The underlying statistics for a robust music industry that includes thriving new artists, in spite of all the recent disasters, have not changed because we as humans love hitting the high notes.

In that regard music isn’t any more on the ropes than our major sports are – that passion is immutable. So what do we do ? It’s about getting better at noticing where the opportunities are and at understanding what the hell is going on out there. Sometimes it’s about working on the next big thing while waiting for yet another storm to pass.

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Democracy ! Yay , Fascism , Boo…And All That (Mastodon Migration)

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Re Mastodon (2):

So now 48 hours and things are mostly sorted and working. Not bad at all. Based on who I’m finding right off the bat I’d say yes – exodus is a word of sorts. In any case we’ll be banging around under the hood for awhile learning how things work. Following , posting and all that are very twitter like with minor differences. Maybe enough to drive the maximally retentive insane but nothing the rest of us can’t handle. And speaking of handle we are @KilleansRow@mastodon.online . Easy

Re Mastodon:

These folks (Mastodon) were clearly not looking to quickly scale a federated network of independent servers in order to accommodate an exodus from a primary network like Twitter due to fascist incursion and hostile takeover. It’s also unlikely that EU and US governance understand this as an event requiring monetary and technical intervention to assist networks like Mastodon struggling to accommodate the influx. For some of us the commitment to democracy runs deeper than a temporarily unresponsive alternative social network but many will rebound back to residency in one of those larger but now demonstrably evil places for convenience or out of bewilderment. The fascists are counting on that. Be aware. Also we are banging around now @KilleansRow@mastodon.online . Just need to get the water and lights turned on…

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So Ughh , the Person-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named bought Twitter and the thing is currently playing out pretty much as the train wreck most of us expected. Before our (probably inevitable) Twexit I tried (no-really !) to ascertain what a few of the big fish were planning. @SaraBarielles https://www.sarabmusic.com/main/ and a few others had made intentions clear enough but no one group seems to have the same convictions with regards to a post exit plan. I have not heard back from her agent.

Here all of this comes amidst a concerted personal effort at disentanglement from doing business with entities funding Election Deniers , Insurrectionists, Domestic Terrorists and other collective fascist interests now collectively represented by the GOP. It’s time consuming and requires patience but is ultimately easier than it sounds. What I suggest is you reference first the Popular Information Accountability Index over at @JuddLegums newsletter site. Having a plan involves knowing who’s feeding the Orcs – then finding alternatives. If you love democracy you’ll start to enjoy the process. As always patience is a virtue. The fact that we’re referencing twitter handles in this post outlines a particularly pressing facet of the current situation – far too much dependence on any one social platform as a reference point and we tend towards laziness. Quite a ways back now Paul Krugman had a post that basically outlined how Twitter has made all of us lazy with regard to writing and conversely having gone TLDR on reading and writing real journalism. Of course since then the NYT has acquired it’s own cadre of fascist influencers on board – just in case. Give folks enough latitude to both sides democracy vs fascism and they will find a way , particularly if it pays well.

Music means that I’m having a good time in spite of all this. There will be more time for writing and outreach now. We have to flesh out a new social and distribution side of things and I have to get better at filing copyrights and licensing but the pace is picking up and there will be lots of music to follow. Also more specifics on who got ditched for funding the destruction of our democracy. Best and regards to all of you…

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Daily Tracks Update

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Yeah so about that last post Twitter is now totally out. We’ll be updating some new status shortly. In the mean time a few bits as we take up some slack. Line 6 just released the 3.5 update for Helix and it is a total destroyer. Literally a brand new day. I’ve also just barely scratched the surface of Omnisphere 2.8 which I can fairly say is a long distance from Omnisphere 1 , which was already incredible. Sound designers have created patch libraries for all of the synth hardware profiles. These are native Omnisphere patches you get to use and build on whether you have the hardware or not. Proggers and experimental musos of all types should immediately check those out. I found up front in one hardware profile alone enough sitting there to save weeks of programming time. It was jaw dropping because there were a couple of things I was literally programming right then that needed another week of work. So the update paid for itself almost instantly.

08/31/22 11:20 ET

Most visitors not following @KilleansRow on twitter have no reason to know that this is primarily the site meant to replace and succeed the former band and solo music blog that started on Myspace. We grew to include science & tech news , sports, research and anything else going on that might turn out to be interesting. Fast forward to now and it looks like things are finally starting to get real. While apologies have been offered for these first few steps taking so long the truth is it’s a big job when the round trip work involved typically used to comprise a team of five or six people specializing in just one part of the journey each. On the other hand it’s outrageously funny just how many fellow musos have jumped into doing exactly the same thing and are recounting pretty much the same experiences along the way. We are mostly an old school bunch and it shows. Ideally you record a full band playing live. Writing and composing reflect a desire for a live performance feel because in the end you want to get out there and play.

Probably the biggest change that technology has wrought for composer/performers is that the two environments that we used to do all these things in were typically well separated in time and space. If you stated a desire to take the recording studio on tour with you folks knew you were joking. Now the idea of a studio rig and a touring rig being literally the same rig isn’t that farfetched. The problem with making that real is the skill sets required to do all these things well still span a much larger space than most solo musicians can handle even with a surplus of 24 hour days available. Yes, technology is making our lives easier , but the level of complexity for knowing and using that technology with skill and efficiency , in spite of all the features meant to make things like mixing and recording easier, are still a big mountain to climb. Particularly when your the composer , performer, recording engineer, producer, mastering engineer, camera and director of photography , lighting, video editing, colorist and possibly now CGI person. And until it all gets off the ground none of it will buy you a cuppa joe. You’ll have to make that too. Cheers !

For those of you considering going down this path (or those forced to by a music industry that has been turned inside out) there are a lot of DIY resources out there but there are also still a lot of obvious things that escape developer attention that will drive you mad. Software installers still pretty much spew the documentation you need…somewhere out there on the drive. Or not. Features may be well documented…or not. Device drivers may continue to work after that latest Windows update or well…how about another cup of coffee? One useful lesson from about five minutes ago is that whenever you think an update or new piece of gear is going to solve a problem check the online documentation first. Is the manufacturer documentation for those features up to snuff or is it nebulous ? Never assume a feature mentioned in a review- regardless of reputations , is actually going to be there. Also when integrating new gear into a rig make sure everything is working -knobs, faders everything.. You don’t want to go four months and then find out only 3 of 4 mic preamps are lit. Shake it out.

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News & Updates

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Blood Moon Eclipse from Florida on 5/16/22 with Sony a5100 3.5-5.6/16-50

The advantage of learning , knowing and applying various analytical methods across the sciences partly lies in getting a leg up on how close (or how far) we generally land from the truth regarding problem solutions in the absence of such methods. Intuition becomes a much more valuable tool once we learn when it is likely to be wrong ( and you’d better not be using intuition to do that ! ). If your experience in life includes events that exceed the normal bounds of cognition (traumas of war and violence at one end of the spectrum and their noetic counterparts at the other- OBE’s, NDE’s, time anomalies , macro psi) then it’s likely your sense of self , emotions and intellect are already finding limits with respect to making sense of the world at large. Derivation and integration are found everywhere in physics and mathematics because nature built them in and the least of us perform these functions at higher level than machines will ever likely achieve (AI arguments notwithstanding). But our cognitive machinery often fails to *consciously* integrate these extremal kinds of experiences in useful ways and we wind up burying them or are even broken by them. Popular press tends more to triumphant storytelling but returning to a war torn world and a body that won’t do what you tell it to is as jarring as birth itself…

Since that last post the war in Ukraine has widened and we’ve had a violent litany of mass murder and mayhem here at home – including the meta atrocity of Uvalde , Texas. These are not random events. The general public doesn’t have the horsepower to integrate any of this at high level. The result is further destabilization. If you’ve found your way here and any of the above makes sense then very likely you’ve not lost touch with the bits of you that know over the long haul everything will be okay. It’s the short haul that’s vexing now.